When I first began to sing again in the Company of Adi Da Samraj, I was
tentative, concerned about technique, intonation, projection. Then he
began purifying my would-be performer's ego. Over the next several years
I was asked to sing under some rather amusing conditions. My first "recital"
was in a room of several hundred people, all of whom were drinking, smoking,
and generating more noise than I. Since then I have been asked to sing
with no preparation time; while ill with the flu, in the middle of dinner
while Adi Da ran simultaneous commentary; at 4:00 a.m. with no sleep the
previous night; on a wind-swept island beach in Fiji at the end of a ten-hour
celebratory gathering with Adi Da. I have sung operatic arias for years
with Adi Da, none of them in my voice range, and usually with at least
several tone-deaf devotee friends providing full-voiced choral support
within inches of my ear.
In retrospect, I can see that all of this history was part of Adi Da's
"Skillful Means" for opening and entering my heart.
I have sung to and with Adi Da Samraj while he held his hands on my heart
in an unspeakable transmission of Divine Force and Consciousness. I have
often felt sung by him, whether or not he was singing at the time.
In the spring of 1994, my voice disappeared as a result of attempting
a performance with ulcerated vocal chords resulting from an illness. For
three years my speaking voice disappeared almost daily with only moderate
use. The medical opinion was that the damage was permanent, but some improvement
might be possible with surgery, which I declined. During this time, Adi
Da gave me detailed health Instruction and spiritual Instruction,and an
empowered pendant to wear around my neck. In February, 1997, my voice
miraculously returned during a three-day period of extraordinary healing
activity in my throat. I gratefully recognize both the three-year purification
period and the resulting return of my voice as the Graceful Work of Adi
Da in my life. His encouragement to sing as a devotional and spiritual
practice has made these albums possible. Otherwise I would have stopped
singing more than 45 years ago.